Hahndorf.

:)

Hurts? I dont think its the right words to describe what i feels now. Im just lost. Lost in my own world. This time its really make me hurts like so much. Everyones likes leaving me alone. Good. :) I dont want to do anytg. I just let time decide whats best for me.

Im sorry if i hurts u in anyways. I let you know what i kept inside. But then I have too. I dont want to feel guilty at the end of time. stop making jokes of me. Im telling you the truth! You should listen. Not ignoring me. Lets just finish and revill everytg. Theres no point to keep it and act like notg happen. Ive tried to accept everytg but i just cant.. I dont want to hurts u in the future. Im sorry. I just cant take it anymore. Not for now. Sorry.

Its hard for me to get everytgs back to normal. But ive tried. But. You still hurts me.. Like so much. Thanx to you.Ive tried.. Im sorry.

U!

Getting me frustrated day by day. Take my heart away day by day. Hurts me without realizing! And You!don't ask me why i didn't hold on my promise! Don't ask me why im doing diz and dat! Ask yourself! You make me regret for the whole of my life! Ask yourself!

I know i'm stupid to tell you sincerely that i love you. And i truly said that i make mistake! Is it wrong for me to be stupid for the person I loved??I said i choose you rather than him! Im sooo damn fuckin stupid! And now what the hell are you saying to me?? U make jokes of it. U think its easy for me huh to tell everything about what i kept inside?? u think its easy for me to accept everything and pretend nothing happens??And that will be the last time ill say it.NO MORE! I'm hurts!!!

Who gonna make me feel better?? Who?? I'm alone here! In this fuckin' city! ALONE! you think i like it hanging around here and there without someones holding my hand? smile at me? hugs me??? Care for me? At least you are there. You know everyone's there. U can smile even though its all fakes. You can hang around with others and they cares about you. Me?? I have to take care of myself. Do everything for myself too! Don't say it easy for me if you really know me well! You no need to make jokes of what im saying. No need to ask me whether is it true or not. Don't ask me anything! Are you really keep your promise either? You are the one who make the promises. Who's the one who telling me that he wont hurts me in anyway! Wont let me cry even once! What the hell is that? Maybe you think I treat you like a doll! Huh! Im all alone in this fuckin' city! Who cares rite? Have you ever know what i feels too??? Did I mentioned what im really facing here?? Did I? No rite?? You make me feel like so hurtful now! You can leave happily there. And even if you are not happy i don't want to know. If someone entertain you in anyways also i didn't want to give a damn!

Im sooo stressssedddd! Dammit!

Pls.

SHUT UP!

Girl Just Wanna Have Fun.

Its getting colder day by day. Dammit. How am I gonna bear with it?? I hate to feel uncomfortable.. :( Yesterday i went to play futsal with Yohes. I wake up like early morning coz i cant really sleep. Then change my clothes and get out from the house without taking any food except chocolate. aha! It was really fun. Other players seem friendly (for now) and I have to go for training like every week. We have a match in Canberra this July. Kind of excited. ngggeeeeeee.. Wish me luck ppl!

And today's activity was fun too! Im going out to the Indonesian Festival. Its near Rundle Street. Theres a lot of foods and entertainment as well. And guess what they are playing dangdut songs in Adelaideee!! haahahhahah.. COOOOOLLL.. i bought so many foods like Soto ayam, mango puding, pepes ayam (but i dont like it) and prawn crackers. hahahha. i know it sound like normal dishes in Malaysia. But i was craving for it since last two months ppl! And i reach there like soo early. Around 11 and go back at 4.hahahha. taking pics and yeah ppl thinks im kinda papparazi coz i take photo a lots! I loveeeddd to take photo and be in the pic also. hehehehe.

I just have another one week holiday. :( so sad. so many things wanna do. But i already plan everytg. I want to have activity for the whole week. Im kinda stressed now a days and i dont want to think bout it like so much. For this week i have plan to go to Handroff and hiking. dammnn! cant wait for that. Maybe ull think what they have at Handroff?? You just wait and see. Ill upload the photo here and show to u. :) What i can tell you is it will have beautiful scenery ( depends on my photography skill.heh)

p/s: ill upload the indofest photo later. ;) toodlee!

Yes!

Mission accomplished. Assignment dah siap. And dah bleh submit dah. Oh God thanx a lot.. Eventhough so many things happen lately in my life, but you make me strong. Strong to fight everytgs that come in front of me. I dont want to be alone.. Pls help me. And more workk to come plsssss.. I need work! To not think about what my mind was thinking. I want worrkkk!Loads of work!

Be Good, zaza!

Note to myself.
Must be always good.
So no one will worry bout me.
No one.
Be good.
Yes. Pls. Pls. Pls.