Goodbye 2009 and say Hello to 2010!

Today is the last day for 2009. So much tears, so much laughter in 2009. After all, its still a gud year for me. Here i list down what have i done so far for 2009. ;) Check it out peeps!

2009:

The Best thing that happens:

1) Finish my degree in UKM - Bachelor of Business Administration (Finance)
2) Working as Junior Finance Executive at Malaysia Airlines Cargo
3) Giving angpau to my sibling and nephew for the first time. hahhaha
3) Working as Admin Executive at Taylor's College, Subang Jaya
4) Celebrating Bestie Birthday Aqilah Azman at Palace of The Golden Horses.
5) Going to Singapore
6) Going to Bali on my Birthday!!! yeayyy!!! Year End Vacation!
7) Found the love of my life. ;)

So for next year i wish it cud b better than this! yeeeehhhoooooo!!!!!! Goodbye 2009 and a BIG welcome to 2010!! ;)

P/S: For all the bad things that happens in 2009 i dunt want to mentioned it here. Coz i dont want to keep thinking bout it for next year. Past is past and just look forward for a better future. ;)

Happy Birthday Sayang :)

12.12.2009. I came back from work and rush to go back home. Ooopppsss... salah. Singgah Sunway Pyramid amik chup chic yang diorderkan khas tuk syg sy. :) I love you. Then rush balik kajang singgah kedai bunga pulak. Kat PKNS. Buatkan crown bunga. huhuhuhu.. And bunga tangan. ;)

Then balik rumah siap2, rushing lagi pegi Palace. Aku bawak kereta macam terbang. Papau dah ter break2 dah. hahahha..Maaf ye.. kita dah lambat pe.. :p Then sib baik sampai Carousel dulu before Fiera. hahha. so tak da la kne bebel. huhuhu. Then syg sy sampaiiii!!! Dengan mata yg ditutup kitorg buat surprise tuk dia. Saya sayang kamu. :) Dia agak terharu jugak. Tapi cam tak da perasaan jugak pon ada. Sesi melantak bermula. Tapi aku tak makan byk pon. Cam tak da selera la plak. huhuhu. Then sesi bukak hadiah. Dia dapat bangles dari Fiera and Wallet Guess dari sy. :) Hope you like it syg. :)

Actually, bila teringat dia sambut birthday ngn kitorg, teringat masa sy. Ada ke kawan2 sy dengan sy jugak nnti? sedih plak tetibe. Saya sayang kamu. Hopefully tahun- tahun akan dtg kamu akan bahagia even without him. Sebabnya kamu ada sy dan mereka. :) So bertabahlah ok. Bukan sepanjang masa kamu akan kecewa. And ada org kata pada sy dulu, jangan expect setiap tahun birthday kamu akan jadi perfect. TAPI saya akan pastikan kamu sambut hari kelahiran kamu dengan sempurna dan dikelilingi org2 yang kamu syg. Bukan dengan air mata dan rasa terabai. :) Dan yakin ramai org selain dia yang menyayangi dan menghargai kamu. :)

Sampai rumah pukul 12malam. Errrggghhh.. besok nye kena kerja lagi. Dammit.

Akhir sekali, Selamat Hari Ulang Tahun, Nor Aqilah Nor Azman. :)

Tense.

Terbaek! Org cuti aku kena kerja. errrggghhhh.. Hectic. Ramai gila lah org nye... Balik lerr... Penat aku nak layan.. Balik plss.. Pale dah sakit dah nih. Dammit!

If you :)

"Whatever you give a woman,she will make greater.

If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby.

If you give her a house, she'll give you a home.

If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal.

If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart.

She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her.

So, if you give her any c...rap, be ready to receive a ton of shit."

Blackberry!!

Bestnyeeee laaaa kalo dapat grab Blackberry!!! erggghhhh... Anyone?? belikan laaaa tuk akuuu!!! :((

Dah nak end of year dah nih. Pe aku nak sume tak dapat beli lagi.. Dammit. Duit habis bayar tu ini. Apa pon tarakk!! Waaaaaa!!!! Sedihnyeeeee... :'( Ipod tak dpt. Handphone tak dpt. Handphone yg ada pon dah jahanam. Sebab jatuh kat Alamanda ari tuh. arrrrggghhhhh.. Fed up! Tense sekejap.



p/s: Susan darling, christmas pressie?? :(

Hati, Bertabahlah!

Oh hati.. bertabahlah kamu. Saat2 macamnih harus bertabah. Sakit, perit, kecewa, duka, pedih jadi SATU. Hati harus kuat. Harus yakin. Semua akan jadi baik. This is what i have to do. Its for my future. Yes, exactly. Its for my future. Tak da jalan lain and tak boleh berpatah balik. Semuanya dah terlambat. Apa yang penting, fokus dengan apa yang aku buat. And have a faith on everytg. Tak semua yang kita nak kita akan dapat. And yang pasti Tuhan dah tentukan apa yang terbaik tuk kita. Siapa aku nak tolak takdir? Sakit ke? Boleh jadi normal macam dulu ke? I need someone. But since before nobodys here. Nobodys know what i keep inside. Becoz i choose to be in that way. I choose to keep everytg by myself.

Dia kecewa. Begitu juga saya. Yakin tentang apa yang selalu dikatakan org. Kita sudah cuba jadi yang paling baik. Mungkin ada silap kat mana2 yang menyebabkan relationship tuh tak work out. Jadi belajar dari kesilapan and jgn diulang lagi kesalahan yg lama. Teruskan hidup dan senyum pada masa depan. Semuanya akan jadi baik je. :) Tak perlu penyesalan sebabnya semua tuh akan menyebabkan hati berdarah dan terluka. Sakit. Yes sangat sakit.

Carilah pengganti. Mungkin itu lebih baik. And mungkin itu yang kamu perlukan. Walaupun sebelumnya kamu yang memilih untuk sendirian tapi lama kelamaan perasaan sunyi akan datang. Aku hanya disini. Menanti perkhabaran yang baik dari kamu. Harap2 kamu akan bertabah sepertimana sy. :) Mungkin kamu merasakan hidup kamu kosong dan tak ada arah. Tapi fikirlah situasi sy yang jauh lebih teruk berbanding kamu. Ada ke masa depan tuk sy? Ada ke masa senang tuk sy? Masa bergelak ketawa dengan jujurnya? Aku syg kamu. Terlalu syg. Tak sanggup tuk melihat kamu terluka sendiri dan ku ingin ada selalu tuk kamu. Tapi apakan daya.. Kau tak pernah memahami. :)

Sejak semuanya terjadi, bulan tak pernah ada dlm hidupku. Bintang juga. Seperti bersembunyi dariku dan tak mahu muncul2 lagi. Kenapa? Aku yang pilih jalan ini? Atau masa ku sudah terlalu suntuk untuk menghargai bulan dan bintang yang sentiasa ada untuk menemani? Mungkin juga aku takkan lagi diberi kesempatan kedua tuk melihatnya? Oh Tuhan, berilah ku kekuatan itu. Aku terluka.... Untuk kesekian kalinya.... Hati, bertabahlah!

Sakit perut.

Erggghhhhh... pe aku mkn eh hari ni??
adoiiiiii...
ada je yg tak kena lah..
sakit peroootttt!!!!
SEKIAN.

Notes.

Hoping that the notes written there is for me. :)
But i dunno y im not sure bout it anymore.
Not like before..
Hurmmm..
But if its really for me yup i already know about it.
Im just counting the days now.
See youuuuu sooooonnnnnn!!
Huhuhuhhu..

Thanx to my dearest friend for chilling me up yesterday. Really appereaciate it. Gemoookk lagiiii lah sy.. Makan, makan, and makan. Ish3x.. Sayang kamoooo semua kuat2x! :*

Headache!

Erggghhhhhh...
plssss gooooo awaaaayyyyyyy!!!!!
Dammit!
Sakitnye lah hai....
pegi lah..
pegilah...
Jgn datang2 lagi...
Tak larat lah nk tahan..
And buat muka fake like everytg is ok..
Plss help me..
Plsss...
Its painfulll..
And i hate it..
Go awaaayyy you HEADACHE!!!!

Sickyyy..

I feel sick la.. headache and feel tired easily.. :( Buat keje sikit je rasa penatt..adeh.. sakitla..perlukan vacation nih..nak pegi Bali boleh? I wanted to go there sooo badlyyy.. hurmm.. but boleh ke? Dengan keadaan aku yg macamnih.. Can i go?Release tension keje..Erggghhhhh.... 2 months to go!!Not yet packing and not yet shopping...haiiisshhh... I feel like i dunt want to go anywhere. Just wanna stay here in Malaysia with everybody who i loved much and spend my time travelling. But i know i cant do dat. I've to go to fulfill my parents wishes (used to b mine before but not now) seems like im in diz condition i dont have any feelings to go to aussie to further my study. Feel like scared to stay at a place where no ones there who i can rely on to and the fooooddddd... OMG! how!how!how! i'll loose weight for sure... :'( To leave the person who i love till like forever (i dunno wether he knew bout it or x). Will he still be there when i came back from Aussie? Will he? Can i count on him? Can i? Oh God pls help me. Im scared.. Im scared if everytgs not going well like what ive planned. Plss..

I Didn't Know My Own Strength..

Lost touch with my soul
I had no where to turn
I had no where to go
Lost sight of my dream,
Thought it would be the end of me
I thought Id never make it through
I had no hope to hold on to,
I thought I would break

I didnt know my own strength
And I crashed down, and I tumbled
But I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
I didnt know my own strength
Survived my darkest hour
My faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up
Hold my head up high
I was not built to break
I didnt know my own strength

Found hope in my heart,
I found the light to life
My way out of the dark
Found all that I need
Here inside of me
I thought Id never find my way
I thought Id never lift that weight
I thought I would break

There were so many times I
Wondered how Id get through the night I
Thought took all I could take

I didnt know my own strength
And I crashed down, and I tumbled
But I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
I didnt know my own strength
Survived my darkest hour
My faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up
Hold my head up high
I was not built to break
I didnt know my own strength....

White Horse... :)

Say you're sorry
That face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on
The days drag on
Stupid girl,
I should have known, I should have known

I'm not a princes, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you
And your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive,
Got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams
About you and me
Happy endings
Now I know

I'm not a princes, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you
And your white horse, to come around

And there you are on your knees,
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm sooo sorry

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now
And its too late for you and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late
To catch me now ...

What shud i do?

What shud i do now? i put on weight day by day. DAMN. Help me pls.