Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Goodbye 2009 and say Hello to 2010!

Today is the last day for 2009. So much tears, so much laughter in 2009. After all, its still a gud year for me. Here i list down what have i done so far for 2009. ;) Check it out peeps!

2009:

The Best thing that happens:

1) Finish my degree in UKM - Bachelor of Business Administration (Finance)
2) Working as Junior Finance Executive at Malaysia Airlines Cargo
3) Giving angpau to my sibling and nephew for the first time. hahhaha
3) Working as Admin Executive at Taylor's College, Subang Jaya
4) Celebrating Bestie Birthday Aqilah Azman at Palace of The Golden Horses.
5) Going to Singapore
6) Going to Bali on my Birthday!!! yeayyy!!! Year End Vacation!
7) Found the love of my life. ;)

So for next year i wish it cud b better than this! yeeeehhhoooooo!!!!!! Goodbye 2009 and a BIG welcome to 2010!! ;)

P/S: For all the bad things that happens in 2009 i dunt want to mentioned it here. Coz i dont want to keep thinking bout it for next year. Past is past and just look forward for a better future. ;)

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Happy Birthday Sayang :)


12.12.2009. I came back from work and rush to go back home. Ooopppsss... salah. Singgah Sunway Pyramid amik chup chic yang diorderkan khas tuk syg sy. :) I love you. Then rush balik kajang singgah kedai bunga pulak. Kat PKNS. Buatkan crown bunga. huhuhuhu.. And bunga tangan. ;)

Then balik rumah siap2, rushing lagi pegi Palace. Aku bawak kereta macam terbang. Papau dah ter break2 dah. hahahha..Maaf ye.. kita dah lambat pe.. :p Then sib baik sampai Carousel dulu before Fiera. hahha. so tak da la kne bebel. huhuhu. Then syg sy sampaiiii!!! Dengan mata yg ditutup kitorg buat surprise tuk dia. Saya sayang kamu. :) Dia agak terharu jugak. Tapi cam tak da perasaan jugak pon ada. Sesi melantak bermula. Tapi aku tak makan byk pon. Cam tak da selera la plak. huhuhu. Then sesi bukak hadiah. Dia dapat bangles dari Fiera and Wallet Guess dari sy. :) Hope you like it syg. :)

Actually, bila teringat dia sambut birthday ngn kitorg, teringat masa sy. Ada ke kawan2 sy dengan sy jugak nnti? sedih plak tetibe. Saya sayang kamu. Hopefully tahun- tahun akan dtg kamu akan bahagia even without him. Sebabnya kamu ada sy dan mereka. :) So bertabahlah ok. Bukan sepanjang masa kamu akan kecewa. And ada org kata pada sy dulu, jangan expect setiap tahun birthday kamu akan jadi perfect. TAPI saya akan pastikan kamu sambut hari kelahiran kamu dengan sempurna dan dikelilingi org2 yang kamu syg. Bukan dengan air mata dan rasa terabai. :) Dan yakin ramai org selain dia yang menyayangi dan menghargai kamu. :)

Sampai rumah pukul 12malam. Errrggghhh.. besok nye kena kerja lagi. Dammit.

Akhir sekali, Selamat Hari Ulang Tahun, Nor Aqilah Nor Azman. :)

Friday, December 11, 2009

Tense.

Terbaek! Org cuti aku kena kerja. errrggghhhh.. Hectic. Ramai gila lah org nye... Balik lerr... Penat aku nak layan.. Balik plss.. Pale dah sakit dah nih. Dammit!

Thursday, December 10, 2009

If you :)

"Whatever you give a woman,she will make greater.
If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby.
If you give her a house, she'll give you a home.
If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal.
If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart.
She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her.
So, if you give her any c...rap, be ready to receive a ton of shit."

Blackberry!!

Bestnyeeee laaaa kalo dapat grab Blackberry!!! erggghhhh... Anyone?? belikan laaaa tuk akuuu!!! :((

Dah nak end of year dah nih. Pe aku nak sume tak dapat beli lagi.. Dammit. Duit habis bayar tu ini. Apa pon tarakk!! Waaaaaa!!!! Sedihnyeeeee... :'( Ipod tak dpt. Handphone tak dpt. Handphone yg ada pon dah jahanam. Sebab jatuh kat Alamanda ari tuh. arrrrggghhhhh.. Fed up! Tense sekejap.



p/s: Susan darling, christmas pressie?? :(

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Hati, Bertabahlah!

Oh hati.. bertabahlah kamu. Saat2 macamnih harus bertabah. Sakit, perit, kecewa, duka, pedih jadi SATU. Hati harus kuat. Harus yakin. Semua akan jadi baik. This is what i have to do. Its for my future. Yes, exactly. Its for my future. Tak da jalan lain and tak boleh berpatah balik. Semuanya dah terlambat. Apa yang penting, fokus dengan apa yang aku buat. And have a faith on everytg. Tak semua yang kita nak kita akan dapat. And yang pasti Tuhan dah tentukan apa yang terbaik tuk kita. Siapa aku nak tolak takdir? Sakit ke? Boleh jadi normal macam dulu ke? I need someone. But since before nobodys here. Nobodys know what i keep inside. Becoz i choose to be in that way. I choose to keep everytg by myself.

Dia kecewa. Begitu juga saya. Yakin tentang apa yang selalu dikatakan org. Kita sudah cuba jadi yang paling baik. Mungkin ada silap kat mana2 yang menyebabkan relationship tuh tak work out. Jadi belajar dari kesilapan and jgn diulang lagi kesalahan yg lama. Teruskan hidup dan senyum pada masa depan. Semuanya akan jadi baik je. :) Tak perlu penyesalan sebabnya semua tuh akan menyebabkan hati berdarah dan terluka. Sakit. Yes sangat sakit.

Carilah pengganti. Mungkin itu lebih baik. And mungkin itu yang kamu perlukan. Walaupun sebelumnya kamu yang memilih untuk sendirian tapi lama kelamaan perasaan sunyi akan datang. Aku hanya disini. Menanti perkhabaran yang baik dari kamu. Harap2 kamu akan bertabah sepertimana sy. :) Mungkin kamu merasakan hidup kamu kosong dan tak ada arah. Tapi fikirlah situasi sy yang jauh lebih teruk berbanding kamu. Ada ke masa depan tuk sy? Ada ke masa senang tuk sy? Masa bergelak ketawa dengan jujurnya? Aku syg kamu. Terlalu syg. Tak sanggup tuk melihat kamu terluka sendiri dan ku ingin ada selalu tuk kamu. Tapi apakan daya.. Kau tak pernah memahami. :)

Sejak semuanya terjadi, bulan tak pernah ada dlm hidupku. Bintang juga. Seperti bersembunyi dariku dan tak mahu muncul2 lagi. Kenapa? Aku yang pilih jalan ini? Atau masa ku sudah terlalu suntuk untuk menghargai bulan dan bintang yang sentiasa ada untuk menemani? Mungkin juga aku takkan lagi diberi kesempatan kedua tuk melihatnya? Oh Tuhan, berilah ku kekuatan itu. Aku terluka.... Untuk kesekian kalinya.... Hati, bertabahlah!

Monday, December 7, 2009

Sakit perut.

Erggghhhhh... pe aku mkn eh hari ni??
adoiiiiii...
ada je yg tak kena lah..
sakit peroootttt!!!!
SEKIAN.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Notes.

Hoping that the notes written there is for me. :)
But i dunno y im not sure bout it anymore.
Not like before..
Hurmmm..
But if its really for me yup i already know about it.
Im just counting the days now.
See youuuuu sooooonnnnnn!!
Huhuhuhhu..

Thanx to my dearest friend for chilling me up yesterday. Really appereaciate it. Gemoookk lagiiii lah sy.. Makan, makan, and makan. Ish3x.. Sayang kamoooo semua kuat2x! :*

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Headache!

Erggghhhhhh...
plssss gooooo awaaaayyyyyyy!!!!!
Dammit!
Sakitnye lah hai....
pegi lah..
pegilah...
Jgn datang2 lagi...
Tak larat lah nk tahan..
And buat muka fake like everytg is ok..
Plss help me..
Plsss...
Its painfulll..
And i hate it..
Go awaaayyy you HEADACHE!!!!

Sickyyy..

I feel sick la.. headache and feel tired easily.. :( Buat keje sikit je rasa penatt..adeh.. sakitla..perlukan vacation nih..nak pegi Bali boleh? I wanted to go there sooo badlyyy.. hurmm.. but boleh ke? Dengan keadaan aku yg macamnih.. Can i go?Release tension keje..Erggghhhhh.... 2 months to go!!Not yet packing and not yet shopping...haiiisshhh... I feel like i dunt want to go anywhere. Just wanna stay here in Malaysia with everybody who i loved much and spend my time travelling. But i know i cant do dat. I've to go to fulfill my parents wishes (used to b mine before but not now) seems like im in diz condition i dont have any feelings to go to aussie to further my study. Feel like scared to stay at a place where no ones there who i can rely on to and the fooooddddd... OMG! how!how!how! i'll loose weight for sure... :'( To leave the person who i love till like forever (i dunno wether he knew bout it or x). Will he still be there when i came back from Aussie? Will he? Can i count on him? Can i? Oh God pls help me. Im scared.. Im scared if everytgs not going well like what ive planned. Plss..

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

I Didn't Know My Own Strength..

Lost touch with my soul
I had no where to turn
I had no where to go
Lost sight of my dream,
Thought it would be the end of me
I thought Id never make it through
I had no hope to hold on to,
I thought I would break

I didnt know my own strength
And I crashed down, and I tumbled
But I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
I didnt know my own strength
Survived my darkest hour
My faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up
Hold my head up high
I was not built to break
I didnt know my own strength

Found hope in my heart,
I found the light to life
My way out of the dark
Found all that I need
Here inside of me
I thought Id never find my way
I thought Id never lift that weight
I thought I would break

There were so many times I
Wondered how Id get through the night I
Thought took all I could take

I didnt know my own strength
And I crashed down, and I tumbled
But I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
I didnt know my own strength
Survived my darkest hour
My faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up
Hold my head up high
I was not built to break
I didnt know my own strength....

White Horse... :)

Say you're sorry
That face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on
The days drag on
Stupid girl,
I should have known, I should have known

I'm not a princes, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you
And your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive,
Got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams
About you and me
Happy endings
Now I know

I'm not a princes, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you
And your white horse, to come around

And there you are on your knees,
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm sooo sorry

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now
And its too late for you and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late
To catch me now ...

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

What shud i do?

What shud i do now? i put on weight day by day. DAMN. Help me pls.

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Holiday.

I'm on holiday last 4 days and i feel a bit cool now. :) I have to really focus on what im doing and lucky me i didnt feel the headache anymore. Yeay! Maybe i need some rest. Thats all.

I really enjoy my 4 days holiday and i think i need more vacation soon. Before im leaving to Aussie to further my study and I'll be alone there. Damn. No one will accompany me there. And i feel sad and home sick i guess. But its just for a while. Yes pls. Pls make it fast for me. :(

I need sometime for myself now. Thank you.

Painful.

Oh its so painful. My stomach. I hate it. Ive to diet. Yes! Have to. Ive put on weight like 50+???? OMG! This is too much.. maintain zaza. maintain. Ill be quiet for a while. Need some space and time. Its very painful knowing that i already put on my weight sooo much! Keep silence and have my own time to think and be strong.. To make any decision on how to keep my body fit like before. Need to focus and everytg will be just fine.

Ive to try harder and push myself. Dont cry soo much or tense coz its just a part of life and ive to bear with it too. MAINTAIN. yes. thats the right word. MAINTAIN. :)

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

If I Am

So you're standing on a ledge,
It looks like you might fall
So far down, or maybe you were thinking about jumping
And you could have it all,
If you learned a little patience... See More... See More
For though I cannot fly,
I'm not content to crawl
To give me a little credit,
Have in me a little faith
I wanna be with you forever,
If tomorrow's not too late
But it's always too late when you've got nothing,
So you say
And you should never let the sun set on tomorrow,
Before the sun rises today

If I am,
Another waste of everything you've dreamed of, I will let you down
If I am,
Only here to watch you as you suffer, I will let you down

So you're walking on the edge,
And you wait your turn to fall
But you're so far gone, that you don't see the hands up held to catch you
And you could find the fault,
In the heart that you've been handed
But though you cannot fly,
You're not content to crawl
And it's always too late when you've got nothing,
So you say
But you should never let the sunset on tomorrow,
Before the sun rises

If I am,
Another waste of everything you hope for, I will let you down
If I am,
Only here to watch you as you suffer, I will let you down...

So you're standing on a ledge,
It looks like you might fall...

If I am,
Another waste of everything you've dreamed of, I will let you down
If I am,
Only here to watch you as you suffer, I will let you down

The answers we find are never what we had in mind,
So we make it up as we go along
You don't talk of dreams, I won't mention tomorrow
We won't make those promises that we can't keep

I will never leave you
I will not let you down
I will never leave you
I will not let you down...

Monday, November 23, 2009

Never.

I'll never allow someone to be my priority while they allowing myself to be their option. Ok now i have to take the resposibility. Alone? Yes, its fine with me. You'll never know whats the meaning of all this and you'll never think further but just to make yourself out rather then stuck into this situation. Its ok coz I dont need you to tell me what to do or not to do. Coz ill do it by myself. Plus you wont do anytg, though. Obviously you won't be punish by ppl around you coz they wont know if u didnt revill it. So for what i want to keep relying on you like you can do anytg for me? You'll never be there whenever i want you to be around. BUT you'll be there when your 'friend' need you to comfort them.hahahhaha.. nevermind. Its my LUCK. :) I wont blame anyone. I'll just follow what my head is telling me but ill NEVER EVER follow my heart coz its will lie. i've prove! ;)

But whatever it is i know and i believe God is always with me. I know I've made soooo many mistake before but im sure God always forgive... Oh God! To you i give my soul and everytg. Pls make things easy for me and i'll promise i'll follow ur way now and forever. Pls God coz i know you still love me and care about me..



p/s: enjoy partying ok. haha.


Thursday, November 19, 2009

You make me S.M.I.L.E

You're better then the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow, that's right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me,
Lets me know that it's ok, yeah it's ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

Don't know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild...

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Oh God!

Oh I feel sick..
Very sick..
Headache and not feeling very well this past few days...
Oh God..
Pls Help me..
:'(

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Stalker!

Hey stalker!
Plsssss Get Losttt!!
I told you i dont want you..
I've been honest sooo far that im in love with someone..
Still in love for God sake!
Just go.. I need space.. plss..
Im sorry if you think ive treat you well before..
But it just not more than friend who need each other and at the same time supporting each other seems both of us gone through sooo much difficulty in life..
Im bagging you.. Plss..
I need him.. I want him..
Just him..
And not you..
We just can be friend...
Not more than that..
Im sorry..
Pls go..

Sunday, November 15, 2009

I Just Dont Know...

Why? Why?Why?Why?
I keep asking myself why?
and till now i cannot get the answer...
Z.E.R.O
FULLSTOP!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

You! Please Get Lost!

Ohooooo! hahhahhaah.. Best!Best! Best!Best! Ko mmg terbaek! Damnnnnn you!!! Benccciiiiiii!!!!Blah!Blah! Blah! Blah!Blah!Blah!Blah!Blah!Blah! No turning back. Damn! I hate myself either coz still have a trust in you! Bullshit! Everytgs bullshittt! hahahahahahahha... Ko mmg tak berenti2 menyakitkan hati aku kan? and aku mmg tersangat lah bodoh coz percaya everytg pe yg aku nmpak n tahu. Kononnya ko tersangatlah frust and watever. hahahha.. Good for you.. oklah babai.

Sekian terima kasih. :D

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Choosing Life Partner :)

Here are five questions you must ask yourself if you're serious about finding and keeping a life partner:


QUESTION 1:
Do we share a common life purpose?

Why is this so important? Let me put it this way: If you're married for 20 or 30 years,
that's a long time to live with someone. What do you plan to do with each other all that time? Travel, eat and jog together?You need to share something deeper and more meaningful. You need a common life purpose.Two things can happen in a marriage:

(1) You can grow together, or
(2) you can grow apart. 50% of the people out there are growing apart.
To make a marriage work, you need to know what you want out of life!

Bottom line; marry someone who wants the same thing.

QUESTION 2:
Do I feel safe expressing my feelings and thoughts with
this person?


This question goes to the core of the quality of your relationship. Feeling safe means
you can communicate openly with this person. The basis of having good communication is trust - i.e. trust that I won't get "punished" or hurt for expressing my honest thoughts and feelings. A colleague of mine defines an abusive person as someone with whom you feel afraid to express your thoughts and feelings. Be honest with yourself on this one.Make sure you feel emotionally safe with the person you plan to marry.

QUESTION ..3:
Is he/she a mensch?

A mensch is someone who is a refined and sensitive person. How can you test?
Here are some suggestions. Do they work on personal growth on a regular basis?Are they serious about improving themselves?A teacher of mine defines a good person as "someone who is always striving to be good and do the right " so ask about your significant other: What do they do with their time? Is this person materialistic? Usually a materialistic person is not someone whose top priority is character refinement.There are essentially two types of people in the world: (1) People who are dedicated to personal growth and (2) people who are dedicated to seeking comfort. Someone whose goal in life is to be comfortable will put personal comfort ahead of doing the right thing.You need to know that before walking down the aisle.

QUESTION ..4:
How does he/she treat other people?

The one most important thing that makes any relationship work is the ability to give.
By giving, we mean the ability to give another person pleasure. Ask: Is this someone who enjoys giving pleasure to others or are they wrapped up in themselves and self-absorbed?To measure this, think about the following: How do they treat people whom they donot have to be nice to such as waiters, bus boys, taxi drivers, etc.. How do they treat their parents and siblings? Do they have gratitude and appreciation?If they don't have gratitude for the people who have given them everything, can you do nearly as much for them? You can be sure that someone who treats others poorly will eventually treat you poorly as well.

QUESTION ..5:
Is there anything I'm hoping to change about this person
after we're married?

Too many people make the mistake of marrying someone with the intention of trying to
"improve"; them after they're married. As a colleague of mine puts it: "You can probably expect someone to change after marriage for the worse". If you cannot fully accept this person the way they are now, then you are not ready to marry them. In conclusion, dating doesn't have to be difficult and treacherous. The key is to try leading a little more with your head and less with your heart. It pays to be as objective as possible when you are dating; to be sure to ask questions that will help you get to the key issues. Falling in love is a great feeling, but when you wake up with a ring on your finger, you don't want to find yourself in trouble because you didn't do your homework.

Another perspective...

There are some people in your life that need to be loved from a distance.It's amazing what you can accomplish when you let go of or at least minimize your time with draining, negative, incompatible, not-going anywhere relationships. Observe the relationships around you.

Pay attention...Which ones lift and which ones lean?
Which ones encourage and which ones discourage?
Which ones are on a path of growth uphill and which ones are going downhill?
When you leave certain people do you feel better or feel worse?
Which ones always have drama or don't really understand, know, or appreciate you?

The more you seek quality, respect, growth, peace of mind, love and truth around you the easier it will become for you to decide who gets to sit in the front row and who should be moved to the balcony of your life.An African proverb states, "Before you get married, keep both eyes open, and after you marry, close one eye"; Before you get involved and make a commitment to someone, don't let lust, desperation, immaturity, ignorance, pressure from others or a low self-esteem make you blind to warning signs. Keep your eyes open, and don't fool yourself that you can change someone or that what you see as faults aren't really that important.

Do you bring out the best in each other?
Do you compliment and compromise with each other, or do you compete, compare and control?
What do you bring to the relationship?
Do you bring past relationships, past hurt, past mistrust, past pain?

You can't take someone to the altar to alter them. You can't make someone love you or make someone stay. If you develop self-esteem, spiritual discernment, and "a life"; you won't find yourself making someone else responsible for your happiness or responsible for your pain. Seeking status, sex, and security are the wrong reasons to be in a relationship.

WHAT KEEPS A RELATIONSHIP STRONG IS:

1. TRUST
2. COMMUNICATION
3. INTIMACY
4. A SENSE OF HUMOR
5. SHARING TASKS
6. SOME GETAWAY TIME WITHOUT BUSINESS OR CHILDREN
7. DAILY EXCHANGES (meal, shared activity, hug, call, touch, notes, etc.)
8. SHARING COMMON GOALS AND INTERESTS
9. GIVING EACH OTHER SPACE TO GROW WITHOUT FEELING INSECURE
10. GIVING EACH OTHER A SENSE OF BELONGING AND ASSURANCES OF COMMITMENT

If these qualities are missing, the relationship will erode as resentment, withdrawal,
abuse, neglect, and dishonesty; and PAIN will replace them...

Monday, November 9, 2009

L.O.V.E.

Love does not consist of gazing at each other...
but in looking together in the same direction....
Im hoping that God is listening to my prayers...
If I wait to do everything until i'm sure it's right
I'll probably never do much of anything....
Oh dear GOD!
Pls help me
FULL STOP.



Sunday, November 8, 2009

Sorry?


Im so sorry........
Enough said...
Forgive me if u can..
Be gud..
I'll always be there..
No matter what...
I'll be there...


Monday, November 2, 2009

I've Spoil Everytg...

Past few days I feel very happy coz I know you always there for me. But today is different. I feel hard and sad. Plus I feel that ppl want to judge me by looking at my past. I dunt know y but i felt terrible. Im not in a good mood and feel depressed. When things goes well y must there be sumtg who spoil everytg? Im so sad...

How am I gonna faced them? How I'm gonna talked to them like notg happened when all of us know theres sometg not right is going on around?I know im not as good as others but ive try hard to change myself and be a better person. I've learn from my mistake. All I need is your support, dont criticize me coz Im not that bad.. No one's perfect and so am I.. Pls accept me the way I am and help me to changed.

I know one day I'll be good.. But for now I just dont know wat shud i do.. I dunt want to giving everytgs up coz i've done so many things to make it happened.Pls trust me. Ill be just fine.. Sooner or later..

Thank you... :)

Thursday, October 29, 2009

For You!

When time passed by i realize that this world is not that bad actually.. hahahah.. I still can smiled eventhough theres so much pain ive gone through in life. I have to thank God coz give me strength to fight for my love and everytg. My life quit stable already and i have everybody with me, dear bestie, family, and you.. :D

Thanx for make me feel better again.. Thanx for encourage me to live my life to the fullest!! yeayyy!! Thanx for change to a better person. Thanx coz still need me. I love you! I hope you can love me till like forever. I forgive you for whatever sins (hehehhe) and tears that you have put me through..DAMN U! hahahhaha.. Nevermind. You are forgiven. Im sorry coz because of me you have to face all diz.. I know God knows better why He treats you like diz.. Just be patience and pray that everytgs gonna be fine sooner or later. :) Whatever it is, I'll always be there for you. I'll be a good girl like you always asked me to be and I'll behave myself coz I know I'm yours. From the beginning till the end, i'm still yours and you are mine.. :* Thanx for super duper (menambah2) loved me.

I love you and I'll always will.. You know that.. :)

My World...

Sing like no one is listening...
Dance like no one is watching...
And love like you never been hurt before...

And this is what we call faith.. :D

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

My favourite ;)

Suka sgt mug nih.. Aku tempah mug nih masa blaja kt ukm.. huhuhu. Buat dua.. satu dah bg yan mok.. tapi aku dah terpecahkan.. hohohoho... takpe2.. ada satu lagi... hakhakhakhak...

*My Favourite mug! hahahahhah...*

*Till now still my favourite.. huhuhuhu.. :D*

Monday, October 26, 2009

Teruskanlah...

Pernahkah kau bicara
Tapi tak di dengar
Tak di anggap
Sama sekali..

Pernahkan kau tak salah
Tapi disalahkan
Tak di beri
Kesempatan

Kuhidup dengan siapa
Ku tak tau kau siapa
Kau kekasihku tapi
Orang lain bagiku

Kau dengan dirimu saja
Kau dengan duniamu saja
Teruskan lah.. Teruskan lah
Kau begitu

Kau tak butuh diriku
Aku patung bagimu
Cinta buta
Kebutuhan mu

Kau dengan dirimu saja
Kau dengan duniamu saja
Teruskan lah.. Teruskan lah
Kau.. kau begitu

Teruskan lah teruskan lah..

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Leaving On A Jet Plane...

All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye

But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn...
The taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I'll tell you now, they don't mean a thing

Every place I go, I think of you
Every song I sing, I sing for you
When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time, oh, let me kiss you
And close your eyes and I'll be on my way

Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times that I won't have to say ...

Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

And I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go....

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Don't Let Me Fall...

Underneath the moon,
Underneath the stars
Heres a little heart for you
Up above the world,
Up above it all
Heres a hand to hold on to

But if I should break,
If I should fall away
What am I to do?
I need someone to take,
A little of the weight
Or I'll fall through

You're just the one
That I've been waiting for
I'll give you
All that I have
To give and more
But don't let me fall

Take a little time,
Walk a little line
Got the balance right
Give a little love,
Gimme just enough
So that I can hang on tight

We will be alright,
I'll be by your side
I wont let you down
But I gotta know,
No matter how things go
That you will be alright

You'll be the one
That I'll love forever more
I'll be here holding you
High above it all
But don't let me fall....
Please don't
Coz my heart will fall apart too..

Like A Song...

I can't forget you when you're gone coz you're like a song that goes around in my head...And how I regret coz It's been so long.. Hurmmm..what is it went wrong?Could it be something I said?Time pls make it go faster or just rewind to back when im wrapped in his arms... All afternoon long it's with me..the same song you left a light on inside me dear..I can Remember the way that it felt to be holding on to you...

T.I.M.E
Make it go faster
Or just decide...
To come back to my happy heart

Moms Birthday :D

Actually birthday nye 8 Oktober but aku baru dapat picture nya dr adik aku.. huhuhuh.. Its just a simple birthday celebration la... Aku belikan kek, and present aku share with my sister. :D Sharing is Caring.. hahhaha.. Aku balik2 ofis around 8 something then aku bawak mak aku pegi makan kat luar. Semua sekali la.. Bukan mak aku je... hohoho.. Aku dah kenyang actually so aku minum je la.. And tukang order ayah aku.. Mak aiii.. Byknya menu... Aku cakap " Yah, byknya order, boleh habis ke?" Then ayah aku ckp " Orang belanja order la byk2" waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!! aku pon kata "ok... mkn kenyang2.. " And bill turns almost RM100 je.. hahahaha.. Sib baik! >,<

*Marble Cheese Cake ok! hahhaha*

Citer klakar jadi kat kedai makan tuh, mak aku nk potong kek, then ayah aku suh tiup lilin skali, mak aku tak nak. Tapi kne paksa. So tiup la jugak. And ayah siap cakap, "kakak, nana, birin, nyanyi lagu Allah Selamatkan Kamu kuat2." haaaaa????? kitorg pun nyanyi lah smbil aku tgk mata mak aku dah berair2 bukan sebab terharu tapi sbb ketawa smpi keluar air mata..Ish3x.. And yang pasti plg over sekali nyanyi ayah aku lah, En Rezaly.. boleh plak lepas habis nyanyi tuh dia cakap Hoyayyyy!!!! ish3x.. takpe yah takpe.. Ur birthday is next! :p We'll see how... ngeh ngeh ngeh...

To my mom, Im sorry if i hurts u much and i know watever u did for me is for my future and u did well moms.. u are really a best moms in the world and I LOVE YOU so much! Only God can repay everything that you have sacrifice for our happiness and i hope God will give you the very best of HIM. Have a happy longer life and stay cute as always! >,<

We love you till our last breath! *Hugs hugs*

Henna?

Yesterday me and Marilyn went leparking at Asia Cafe.. hahhaah.. On purposed actually.. Im quit excited AS USUAL :p .. Marilyn asked me to lend my hand to her for her new henna design... And I said YES without thinking.. hahahhahaah coz excited kan.. ;)

And guess what?? Its turn S.U.P.E.R.B!! Good job Marilyn.. hehehhehe... And i like it so much...

It takes around 40 minutes to finish the drawing and while Marilyn doing the Henna im eating Maggi Soup! hahhaha.. Gud One.. :P

Once I reach home yesterday, my sister went shocked and u know what she said to me? " Kak!! kenapa tangan kau bersisik??" DAMN U! "Ni inai la ngok.. " Then she replied me back " Nak pengsan aku, aku pkir2 sejak bila tangan kakak aku ada sisik?" .... Then i just ask her to have a look on my hand.. and she said.. " Cantik.. "

Thanx to Marilyn.. hehhehehe.. >,<

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Steel Heart - She's Gone


She's gone,
Out of my life.
I was wrong,
I'm to blame,
I was so untrue.
I can't live without her love.

In my life
There's just an empty space.
All my dreams are lost,
I'm wasting away.
Forgive me, girl.

(Chorus)

Lady, won't you save me?
My heart belongs to you.
Lady, can you forgive me?
For all I've done to you.
Lady, oh, lady.

She's gone,
Out of my life.
Oh, she's gone.
I find it so hard to go on.
I really miss that girl, my love.

Come back into my arms.
I'm so alone,
I'm begging you,
I'm down on my knees.
Forgive me, girl.

(Chorus x2)

Lady, oh, lady.
My heart belongs to you.
Lady, can you forgive me?
For all I've done to you!


P/s: Its a nice song la... Songs for man! :p

Thanx To Papau a.k.a Kuih Pau! :D

Thanx to Papau coz updating my blog.. bukan aku tak nak update sendiri.. tapi .. serahkan je lah pada yg pakar.. wahahaahhaaa.. (konon2 pakar lah.. bg ko kembang sket..) padahal mn tak pakarnya.. dah 24jam mengadap tenet je keroje ko.. mentenet2.. :p neway..barulah nmpak berseri-seri sikit blog kesayangan aku nih.. ada semangat sikit nak mengarut hari2.. lalallalalaalla... oh jap nk kena letak gmbr papau la.. baru la org tau sapa kan.. wahhaahahahahha.. *pau aku curik gmbr ko kt fb jap*

TARAAAAA!!! eh pesal gmbr nih kat celah air plak.. oh jap ye kengkawan.. sy curik gmbr yg lain.. lallalala..

Ha nih la bedah a.k.a senah yg tolong meng updatekan blog sy smpi jadi meriah nih... hahhahaha... suka lah tuh aku letak muka ko kat blog akukan? gedik yg amat! takpe2... nnti aku blnje roti pisang.. ko suka kan.. hakhakhakhakhakhak.. thanx syg! sy syg kamu!!! *hugs hugs*


p/s: seminggu je aku letak muka ko kat cni.. then aku smpan kat draf je ye.. harap maklum.. hahhahaha

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Afraid For Love To Fade...

My head's in a jam
Can't take you off my mind
From the time we met
I've been beset by thoughts of you
And the more that I ignore this feeling
The more I find myself believing
That I just have to see you again...

I can't let you pass me by
I just can't let you go
But I know that I am much too shy
To let you know
Afraid that I might say the wrong words
And displease you
Afraid for love to fade
Before it can come true

Like a child again
I'm at a loss for words
How does one define
A crush combined with longing?
Longing to possess you so dearly
I'm obsessed by you completely
I'll go mad if I can't have you....

I'm Afraid For L.O.V.E to fade before it can come true...

Sunday, October 18, 2009

You are so adorable baby.. :D



I went to Priyah's house for Diwali Open House and i meet with this adorable girl named Ashley.. OMG! hopefully ive kids look like her when i got married. hahhahahahah.. You are so adorable darling.. Hugs hugs! :*

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Am I?

Am I In Love???
Again???
OMG!!!
Scary...
huhuhuhuhu..
:))

Away To Singapore =)

Yes ppl, im away to singapore for two days. Just wanna hanging around and see other ppl country.. Hopefully ill be just fine. =) I'll be staying at Strand Hotel near the town. Hurmmm will upload the pic later once i've got back to Malaysia!!

Dunt miss me kay.. :D


mood: Excited! :D

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Love...

Love is like a butterfly ..
The more you chase it , the more it eludes you.
But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it.
Love can make you happy but often it hurts ,
but love’s only special
when you give it to someone who is really worth it..
A person who knows
whats da meaning of love only understand it..

Thank you kak.. :D

My life sucks this 2 days.. However God heard me and send her to me.. Thank you.. :D Im on leave yesterday and chill up my day with her. We went for a movie, shopping, drinks, eating, and wat else girls always do when they meet up, rite? huhuhuhu..

*Noor Irwani Ab Rahman, syg kamu byk shangait!*


Happy! Yes2.. She buy a present for me.. hehehhe.. a necklace.. price (RM#$%^) choosen by me.. ahaks! Actually she said she want to buy a gift for her friend and asked me to choose it for her. After she paid the necklace she gave it to me.. hoyayyyyy!!! kakak memang terbaek! malunyeeee >,<


Thanx kak.. Thanx for everytg.. :) I love you!

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Open House :)

*Thasha, Sutha, Susan and me*

* amer, fiera, lina, iza dan sy*

*nina, abah, mama, ipin, yan*


Its really tiring but ive enjoy the day much. My long lost friend iza shahira and lina farhana olso coming. thanx guys. Really appreciate it. And for those who cannot make it that day its ok. rayakan sebulan.. so if ada masa just drop by to my house k.. but make sure inform awal la.. at least bleh prepare sumtg kan.. takda la makan kuih je..

And to YOU thanx for coming too.. and im happy seeing u there with your family. Really appreciate it much... :D

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Someday...

Someday someone might come into your life and love you the way you've always wanted. If your someday was yesterday, learn. If your someday is tomorrow, hope. And if your someday is today, cherish it..

Its amazing how someone can break your heart, but you still love them with all the little pieces. However, we come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly, so we have to be positive...

Cheers.. :D

Monday, September 28, 2009

Listen by Beyonce

Listen to the song here in my heart
a melody I start but can't complete

Listen to the sound from deep within
Its only beginning to find release

Oh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

[chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

There was someone here inside
Someone I thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed Aside or turned
Into your own
All 'cause you won't listen

[chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start, but I will complete

Now I am done believing you
You don't know not what I am feeling
I'm more than what you've made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me

But now I got to find my own - my own

Friday, September 25, 2009

Stop!

Rare kan title blog aku.. mesti sumer org konpius pe benda alah nya lah maksud stop ni. huhuuhuh.. Stop means i wont update sumtg that represent my feelings towards sumtg i lioke or feel gud. Coz its ol Bullshit! hahahahahah

And masa aku tulih blog nih aku baru je balik dari melepak kat andalus, ampang ngn kiela merangkap sahabat baek n sejati ku sekarang :D kawan sampai mati ok! hohohoo... pegi andalus makan makanan pelik ok. adehhh.. membazir rasanya.. my bill turned to RM48.50. Padahal bukan makan pe pon. PLUS tak sedap ok. And listen to kiela story.. About her love life which is not work out at all. Notg much i can do for you dear, i can just make u fell pampered.As a frend, dats ol i can do for you. Supporting u, and give you the strength to move on wif ur life. Love life is not easy like what we saw in any love movies or act. There are all FAKE! My advice to you, don't search for someone perfect coz no one in this world are perfect. Search for someone who can show u the effort to make the relationship work out.Someone who r not trying to be perfect but shows effort and make u feel dat they really need n appreciate u in their life. When we feel that the person we love appreciate us we will feel like been needed n exist. Start looking for this type of guy sayang. He not deserved to have you in his life. And the most important thing is it is not our lose but theirs. Who leaves the one n only person who had never ever give up on them. Open up your eyes. The world is still a beatiful place if u look at it wit your heart. ill always be there for you. :D

Balik umah kul 1 lebih pas anta kiela kat umah. huhuhh.. now masa aku tido la plak.. :D

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

..............

G.A.M.E
OVEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRR!!!!!

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Cerita M.C

Hahahhahah.. 28082009 nk merayap punya pasal sanggup mintak MC n tak gi keja.. bukanlah... actually hari nih duedate anta jubah. So kenalah pegi hantar if tak next week dah kena charge. bukan sukati tak nk g keje.. lalallala. kuar umah dlm kul 10am then straight g ukm hantar jubah. dah setel trus gi mid jumpa kak wanie... hahhahaha.. tuh motip sbnr mntak cuti kot.. :p bukan selalu pe lepak ngn kakak. alang2 kakak turun dr trgganu tuh pe lagi pjg ar langkah kitorg seperti biasa :D sy sampai mid pukul 11.30am (jam ok) sib baik kak wani tak ngamuk.hakhakhkahkakha.. then trus beli tiket wayang citer up.. suka shanngait! n plg kelakar kitorg masuk slh wayang. konfiden je masuk n pelik sendiri coz pehal wayang dah gelap padahal kitorg masuk 15minit awal.hohoho.. duduk dlm 10minit camtuh rasa len coz citer G.I Joe (eh ye ke) plak tgh tayang. so kakak kuar jap n tgk kat luar mmg kitorg slh masuk panggung. wakakakakkaka... then kakak msj suh kuar. kitorg apa lagi. bantai gelak smpi nk guling2. mmg lawak la. dlm wayang kakak tido. TERBAEK! aku je la mengadap citer up tuh sengsorg. bila dah abih citer up kakak duk sibuk tny pe jd dr A-Z lak tuh. adeh. nak kena citer balik yg payah nih. Lepas tuh kami pergi window shopping. :D best5824237092x kakak tak yah ckp la.. macam2 dia beli.. n kebanyakkan nya makanan la.. kitorg pon beli kuih raya lagi. nak test je pon.. huhuuhuh..n lepak2 smpi lah nk dekat pukul 6. abg mir ckp plg lambat kul 3.. mak ai... patah kaki dah jalan kt mid tuh.. huhu.. bila kakak balik aku pon berambus la. sib baik aku bleh igt lagi aku park keta kt mana. hohoh.. peluapa ok! lagi2 bab parking nih. odw balik dekat highway before sg besi ada org mati. eksiden.. :( sedihnya... naik moto kot... coz tak nmpak pon keta.. hurmm... dlm kul 8 smpi umah. agak exhausted jugak lah.. hohooho... tapi mmg njoy la.. hari yg best.. :D dpt kuar ngn kak wani n dapat release tensen.... :)



p/s: Mission accomplished! :D

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Convo Rehearsal!

Time nih pegi amik jubah kat ukm... then buat fotografi session.. lompat2 cam beruk jap.. dah la panas yg amat.. ish.. huhuuuu.. then pegi putrajaya.. ada flora day.. kak mar bilang best n bila dgr dia citer rasa cam gempak je.. tapi.... hurmmm.. boleh lah.. tak da bnd yg byk sgt leh tgk pon.. macam bese snap2 pic la.. huhuhuh.. penat jugak.. enjoy la the pic.. yg lain2 sy upload di facebook.. :D kat blog nih sket2 je la.. huhuhuhu

Friday, August 21, 2009

My Convocation :D



*Keluarga besar sy*


*Sahabat baik di UKM (tahun depan ko konvo aku dtg plak ye)*

*Teman berdiskusi.. ceeewwaaahh! gado ngn aku je lebih!*

*My sister till last breath :D*

*Kena lambung versi 2 (Guys version)*

*Kena lambung versi 1(Girls version)*

*Muka Over Excited.. hahahha*

*My team.. Miss u all so much!*

*Dengan nana a.k.a Jongos (adik sy yg gedik nk mati)*

Saya berkonvo pada 16 ogos yg lepas.. dan sgt2 lah cuak plus malas jugak nk datang untuk sidang petang.. then adik saya yg baik hati a.k.a nana jongos tolong melilitkan tudung sy ala2 yuna..dan sbnrnya sy rasa agak tersepit jugak.. hohoho.. keluar dewan berjumpa dgn keluarga sy.. dpat bunga lagi.. hahahahha.. dr ayah dan nana.. :D mekasih mak,ayah, maklong.paklong, nana, birin, angah,abg syam sebab dtg ye.. syg kamu semua! :D kemudian nya sy disambut oleh ahli2 koir sy yg sgt baek hati menyumbangkan suara pada hari itu menyanyikan lagu you raise me up and lagu wajib kami music speak to me now.. :D thanx to you ol.. really enjoyed my self very much that day.. kena lambung lagi.. 8 times! aiyaaakkk! pening dah... thanx so much to everybody.. i love you ol! :*

Notes for you...

Dear Family: Saya jumpa anda di kampung besok untuk berbuka puasa.. rindu pada nenek sy yg dah lama tak ketemu, pada saudara mara yg dah lme tak jumpa juga.. tak sabar nk balik kg.. harap dimaafkan segala salah dan silap dan minta halal makan dan minum.. sama2 lah kita kerjakan ibadah puasa nih ngn bersungguh2. BASYA! hakhakhakhak ... *sedapnya soya*

Dear Friends: Selamat berpuasa kengkawan. Kalau ada masa kita boleh buka puasa bersama2 ye.. Kat sini nak mintak maaf byk2 kalau ada salah silap sepanjang kita kawan.. tercelupar ke terlaser korg ke.. hohohohoho.. 0-0 ok.. :D n thanx my dear frend coz selalu ada bersama di waktu susah dan senang.. kamulah kengkawan yg terbaek! :D cayalah!

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Its All About Sacrifice And Respect...

For this few days i juz realize being in a relationship is about trusthy and honesty.. but then in a meanwhile its olso about sacrifying and respect..

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Welcome Qaisarah Qairin Sofea!





Qaisarah Qairin Sofea! cantik sungguh nama kau.. huhuuh.. nih anak kazen aku... chumel shaannngggaaaiiiittt... aku suka baby.. n time aku publish post nih dia dah 1 month kot.. n baru abis buat kenduri cukur jambul tuk dia.. lalalalal... so sweeeettttttt! :D wish u ol the very best of life cayang! :D

Mother's Day


huhuhuh.. lama sudeyh tak update blog.. quit bz lol.. nak masuk pic baru eh tak da lah baru sgt... masa mothers day tuh... tak upload kt mana2 pon lg... :D happy mothers day mom! i love you so much! u r the best mother in the world.. yeahhhh! :D *hugs hugs*










Friday, April 17, 2009

Kakak Emmy Kawen =)


Masa nih aku g ngn dedeq je.. kakak emmy kawen.. bukan emmy ye kawan2.. ahahahahaah tapi aku dah tgk arh balak emmy.. rugi ar korg.. lalalallalal.. masa nih boring gak lah.. coz tak ramai yg datang.. tp pe nak buat.. org dah ajak.. n aku pun da lama tak jumpa emmy.. huhuhu.. dia dah cantik nyah.. tgk lah kat gmbr.. cam datin2 dah aku tgk..hahahahahaah.. korg sume nih bila nak kawen eh?tggu aku ke?kalo tggu aku alamatnya anak dara tua r korg.. hohooohohoho



Thursday, April 16, 2009

My 21st Surprise Birthday Party








Mas nih aku tak budget pon dorg nak wat surprise party tuk aku.. hohoho.. aku lak kuar gi mid ngn veron.. then si yan asyik col2 aku je.. n kakak pon msj suh datang kenny rogers.. ada makan2 katanya.. aku pon g lah.. tapi lmbat 2 jam.. hahahahaha.. kakak da ngamuk da sbnrnya..tp sbb besday aku dia cool je.. sorry ye kak.. aha! dorg wat surprise party tuk aku rupanya.. kat kenny rogers!.. terharruuuuu sialllll! kakak ada, aus, ayis,ipin,bell,kak mar n yan.. best5! thanx to ol of you... =) pastuh kitorg g men bowling plak.. hohoho.. macam la aku teror sgt.. tp sbb besday aku takder org leh cas2 aku ari tuh.. hahahahahaha





p/s: sdpnya kek baskin robins nih.. thanx ye kak.. =)