Painful.

Oh its so painful. My stomach. I hate it. Ive to diet. Yes! Have to. Ive put on weight like 50+???? OMG! This is too much.. maintain zaza. maintain. Ill be quiet for a while. Need some space and time. Its very painful knowing that i already put on my weight sooo much! Keep silence and have my own time to think and be strong.. To make any decision on how to keep my body fit like before. Need to focus and everytg will be just fine.

Ive to try harder and push myself. Dont cry soo much or tense coz its just a part of life and ive to bear with it too. MAINTAIN. yes. thats the right word. MAINTAIN. :)